Single and no kids - The middle aged Indian man taboo

I graduated a decade ago in engineering, although all my friends found good jobs in big companies, I somehow missed out, tried with call centre jobs but was never happy with the jobs I got , plus the Indian society puts a lot of pressure for you to perform even if you are a bad student, quit jobs that didn't find better opportunities but found a lot of disappointment and went into depression, I guess I got messed up psychologically,  moved to Canada, did a diploma, was sure to find better opportunities than India, that I did. Still, I have anxiety patterns which keep my thoughts bizarre sometimes, I guess I need time to get better.
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My parents think I will be a normal functioning unit of society, but I don't plan to have children , that's the way I think I will better, I do plan to date , I don't know whats wrong or maybe my previous relationships were bad enough to realize that this is not worth the effort .For the people in India who do read this, I plan to spend my weekends with myself, sleeping late, writings blogs, doing errands and whatever the hell I want to do. I do get loneliness triggers sometimes but I go for a bike ride or do something meaningful to keep my thoughts distracted.
But I totally don't regret being single and alone as compared to my other friends, their face book feed is filled with happiness and cultural activities, I, on the other hand, think a million times before posting anything. I do plan to find a life partner but my searches have been disappointing so far, I guess the good luck window gets shorter and shorter as you age. My twenties were a regret filled decade which other people were enjoying and keeping steady jobs.
I am still not sure what to do in future, sometimes I plan to learn more coding with QA automation to find a better career, sometimes I feel like moving to the country and doing a small time job which will keep me happy. I have realized so much of my problems are psychological and keep digging up mountains, one step at a time I guess. Getting a good partner is essential for your well being, I wish I had bought stocks for Bitcoin in 2010, I would be so mother fucking rich right now, money is a new religion, I want a rocket instead of walking to my riches.
Still, I feel Indian people should have fewer children, with the amount of pressure on resources is going, India is fucked in the upcoming decade or so, and no Modi can save it. Hell, the amount of competition India has is unhealthy and cruel in many ways.